Curious Hideout

In this room I feel so hollow, There’s a burden that lies, A brightness shine through my window, Its radiance caught my heart, Looking through my window, A little star sat on a tree nearby, Sparkling, it made me wanna know, How would it be in these hands of mine? Tenderly, I held my fingers to it, Anxious, it did not run away, Softly, I grasp hold of it, Surrendering everything in between. Little star in my hands, I want to hold you dearly, Little star in these hands, Beside my chest you lay. Don’t dimmed away, You’re all I been looking for, I won’t let u fade, Coz in my heart you’ll stay. ~xin~

I don’t wanna run away, Especially not away from you, I just wanna stay, And be here always for you. But all I need is time, Is it me the one for you? All I need is time, For me to prove it, it’s true. Don’t rush in, Look into your heart, Is it me, there inside? The one you see at night. You’re embedded here, In my heart u stay, Your face appear, Each time I close my eyes. ~xin~

I need to lay the bricks down, One piece by one piece, Carefully to make it stand, Steadily without me, it shall endure. I’ve done my job, To make it complete, But I can’t bear it any longer, The sun faded my strength. As the brown leaves fall, Brick by brick I still lay, But as harsh wind blows, The storm swept me away. As rain drop falls, I shelter it from drenched, And so I keep laying, But it was just bricks I laid. Small young bricks, Not heated evenly in ovens, It could not withstand, Even how well I lay. It all comes crushing on me, Damaged, I am weaken, All that’s left are crumbles, Not the wall I vision to see.

I can’t help but fall deeper, As each day passes, I can’t resist you any longer, I just can’t keep focus. I try to walk away, I try to close the door, Yet the door sways, Slightly ajar for me to peek. I can’t help but thinking, Of you each day, each moment, Each night, each minute, What is this I am feeling? In my mind you stay, Yet I struggle each day, Battling u from every way, Just to stop this right away. ~xin~

Falling for you, Even if I don’t know you. At the valley I stood, Near the shore you stand, To walk to you I would, Between sea and land a Gate stands. At the valley I look, Close to where you are, Nearer to you I would, Just to be where you are. At the shore you would be, Throwing pebbles into the sea, To see you smile, My heart could easily set free. I want to know you more, And then I have to step back, The shore I can’t step onto, It’s not meant to be. If only, If only, I could wipe away your tears, With arms wide open, A caring friend by your side, To be where you are without fear. A friend. ~xin~

Walking along side terraces, A walk that seems endless, There I saw you, Sitting on the bench in silence. Thoughts playing in your mind, You’ll be there sitting, In a place no one could find, Alone you bear nothing. A step closer my foot moves, A smile I put up for you, Politely your lips curve upwards, Clouds clear for me and you. Looking at cars pass by, I’ll soon count my way to you, Gazing at the sun above, Truly melts my heart. Blood keep pumping, My heart can’t stop beating, A step forward, A step backwards, On crossroads I stand, Left or right will I go? ~xin~