Curious Hideout

as other birds fly around, up above my head singing, a melodious tune to me, comfort always seem tempting. as they come lingering near, so that's what i hear, no, i am not here, i've gone to find you. shoo..go away birdies, near those morning glories, i see you shinning, to me so brightly. nothing compares to you now, not even the sun that shines, and as you're still here, that's who my heart sees. hindering other temptation, to keep the heart lock.

could i fall too hard, too easy to predict, how the heart beats, maybe too foolish, for a broken heart to love, again and again, falling into love trap, not being able to climb out again, having no right to hold her, just laying astray, pouring all that's left, with myself to bear, what that of my actions.

as stars fills the sky, so does my heart fills you, soon till the extend, there ain't no place for anyting. and as each second pass, i long to see you, to see your smile, the way you look at me. whenever i look outside, i wish i could see you too, all is too near, yet still too far.

Am I really not the one? Maybe its cause we may not spent a day longer together here. Therefore you close heart from mine, Not to hurt both you and I, Not to endure that loss that will come upon us. Isn’t there any? In that space in your heart, Will I be kept particularly, Silently. I just wonder, Were there any seconds, You feel the same way too, The way I feel for you. Weren’t there anything u felt? Had I appeared suddenly on your mind? Do you scent the flower, I found in you. Have I not captivate you, Like how much you do to me, Am I just a player, A fool in those eyes of yours. Maybe you should not have known, Maybe I should kept quite, All the while just to keep, Emotion that rupture inside my heart. You should have not known, What we had before may loss, But not that sense I feel, Not how the way we relate. I won’t throw that friendship away, I still want us to be us, No close doors, Nor close hearts, Just conversation for hours. Don’t turn into another direction, Its just me ove...

No games no rules, just a simple feeling, no tricks, no fools, just my heart beating. Too sudden this may be, but is it wrong? why does guilt surrounds me, how couldn't i step forward. I hope 4 nothing, i wish 4 nothing, i pray 4 nothing, just me being beside you. Is it that hard? to trust in me. Am i a liar? pretending to love you. Words may be decorated, but not my heart, nor how i care, it borns within the heart.

My curiosity, killed her trust, wanting to know more, made a fool of myself, unable to control that anxiety. the things she does, before she eats, before she sleeps, what is it she does, i just gotta know. what time is it? as she sips her coffee, as she plugs her earphones, as she goes out to work. the moment she bite her nails, she lets her hair down, and the music she listens, curious i am to be. where is she from? how she dresses her thoughts, her experiences before me, i would want to know. her favourite colour, how much she adores spicy food, her passion and dreams, to me i keep dearly as memories. how common our thoughts, days when even our shirt matches, how frequent our eyes may lock, just staring at each other, plainly. i can't help to notice...yet not all is noticeable...(like that pimple)...