Curious Hideout

As simple as honey and bees, As easy as one, two, three, That we’re in love, just you and me, We’re here, like it’s meant to be. The day starts with a thought of you, And doesn’t end without you. In the bus, in the class, Dancing, running and even studying, On the table, and whenever I am able, You keep me smiling like a fool. Even if you’re not by my side, Even if I can’t hold you tight, You know I feel you so near, Like you are just inside my heart here. And when we finally meet, In my arms you stay, If only I could hug you every day, Everything just disappears away. ~star~

Too much a dream for me to dream, But as real as you are to me, It is still just a mirage, The closer I get, the further you go. I’m hurting deeply by each move I make, By each move you take, Don’t keep coming so close, You know I can’t take it if it’s fake. I can’t commit to something that isn’t mine, I am not yours, yet I am bound to you. Living each day as if we’re together, And each day my heart shatters, Like a rose, its petals fall piece by piece, Leaving a dead stem in a glass box. I love you, But this way I don’t want to live. We are already here, what more are you afraid? Doesn’t it hurt already now? We’re living as if we belong to each other, My battery is low…don’t treat me so good, It’ll just make the battery die… ~xin~

Magic dust and sparkling stars, Time stops and everything freezes, Just like in fairytales, You’re here beside me. White snow covering all around, A ring on your finger and mine, And there’s no one around, Will you be mine? Little star came flying down, Beside me it lay twinkling, Little star whisper at my ears, You’re not alone, I am here. They came in two, Eyes close when their mouth touches, One for me, and one for you, Will your eyes close if I kiss you? Just by walking into my room, Just by breathing I could feel your presence, When I wake up, I see a cake that last forever. Is this all a dream, a fairytale? ~xin~

Air is still air for us to breathe, But why is it hard for me, To breathe the air everyone breathes, To live like everyone lives. Tears are still tears for us to cry, I envy those who could just cry, For nothing flows down my cheek, It’s only my heart that bleeds. To hold you is still a fantasy, Could I even touch you? For if I look into your eyes deeper, I know I can’t pull back any further. No, not this way do I want to live, Nor do I want to leave, No, not in the middle I want to be, Left here hanging like a thread. ~xin~

Here is where I hide, Behind those trees, I keep myself shade, Bury how I truly feel. I come back, Just so that you’ll not be alone, In your grey world, You’ll hurt yourself so much. My eyes can’t bear to see you cry, It can’t take it how much you’ve hurt. I tried to go away, Tried to just let you sort it out, Yet still I can’t see you fall, And get up all by yourself. Won’t you let me lead you? Out of darkness we will go, To a brighter place for you to shine, Until you don’t need me no more. ~xin~

Here I go again, Coming here always, To see if you’re here, To where my heart lays, Here I come again, Writing and writing, On notes, on books, For feelings that are trap within. Overwhelmed by you, A force that inspires, These hands to keep writing, This heart to keep singing. Just a thought of you, A millions words I can’t describe, Yet just a thought of you, Could easily make me smile. ~xin~

I rather not know, Deep inside how u really feel. As two hearts beat together, They still could not hold each other, No, this is not the movies, Let’s create our own story? It hurts so much right now, To see you cry in the corner, My hands, they reach for you, Come, hold my hand. Don’t be afraid, we won’t be the same, Let’s see the world we make, We’ll only laugh till we die, And I promise your tears will dry. A promise I can only make, If only you are here. ~xin~