Curious Hideout

why am i left here? behind the starting line i stand, everyone is now ahead of me, pacing their way through life, but i am left here, like an infant whose legs are weak. Behind the line i stand, watching them fight for victory, yet i am bound up by love, my legs and hand are all tied up, screaming in agony i shout for help, yet no one is at sight, i am left behind. i untie myself and make my feet strong, Now i take my step, but i can't move on, i try my best to pass this line, And try to boost my way through life, yet i am as slow as a snail could crawl, once again i am left behind.

Weak was what u made me, Never again strong to fight winds, But only to follow the current that leads. So tender for my heart broke so easily, My heart of wood has changed to glass, So easily for tears to flow right down my cheeks, So stupid for me to think of you. Never have I felt so weak, For such reason, I failed to see, That SPM is near, and I need to read, Yet thanks to a special friend to me, Whom awaken me to stand up and fight.

Seconds, minutes, hours, days, Weeks, months, years, decades, From time to time, Not a single day will be the same. Nor does the weather that changes, Nor does the petals of a flower, Never will light shine for me, To lead me away from darkness, Shine no more, rays all gone, JUST…darkness… Firefly comes lingering, For once I saw it glittering, Amaze in awe, as I glance it flies, Is this dear bug capable to lead me to life? Lock in darkness, In eternal despair, To find a furnace, To burn in flares. As I have dream, For glitter to turn to flames, For blocks of bricks taken away, To find a land not conquer by PAIN.

An opportunity in front of me, I seize, But to appreciate it, I lack. A chance given to me, Taken lightly as dust in the air, For I have not grasp hold of it tighter, But held it loosely in a winter’s night. Forgive me, for I disappoint you, Should I let you feel secured, Instead I boast all I have, Above all, you were, Yet I lack my appreciation. Regret takes over, But only fades away, All has gone, eaten by time, No use looking back, Just have to lift up my head, And march on forward.

A wound bound up by plaster, Yet will not heal as time is given, Open up to feel the fresh air, Yet to breathe foul odor. Place a flower beside me, And as I scent once more, It will not be the same, As the first day it was laid beside me. Replace the flower with another, The feeling differ, Never will it be as alike As the flower before,

Wondered? Hav you ever wonder? Wonder about the pain that i go through, The fake smiles i put on my face, Just to cover up my disgrace. Joy & laughter is always in the air, but it seems so hard to grasp, & put it inside my heart, For just a moment it lasts, & out it goes to the yard. I hide tears, to show you i am tough, tears i cry at nite, to beg for a friend, the sun comes out, and so is my smile, to start a new day, and go on with life.