wondered?

Wondered?

Hav you ever wonder?
Wonder about the pain that i go through,
The fake smiles i put on my face,
Just to cover up my disgrace.

Joy & laughter is always in the air,
but it seems so hard to grasp, & put
it inside my heart,
For just a moment it lasts, & out it
goes to the yard.

I hide tears, to show you i am tough,
tears i cry at nite, to beg for a friend,
the sun comes out, and so is my smile,
to start a new day, and go on with life.