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I owaz feel like dying

Fell like taking a knife and juz pierce it into my heart. Watch my blood flow and slowly die as I run out of blood. That would easily ease my pain.

It is so hard to breathe as I gasp for air, once again my heart soars. As tears rolled down my cheek I hope that I could reach for a knife and juz take my life away.

I owaz feel like stabbing myself in the heart several times, because of the constant pain I suffer. It hurts so much now that if I stab myself, I would not feel any pain.

I do not know what stresses me the most

Izzit studies?---Friendship?---Family?---Or love?

I suppose it juz adds up together to form one big tumor in my heart, blocking blood from reaching it.

What is the main cause of my disease?

Where does it come from?

How to overcome it?

How to fight it?

If a doctor cured studies, would he cure friendship? If he cured friendship, would he cure family? And if he cured family, would he cure love? Would he cure hate?

Which is the most important? Which to cure first?

That feeling of stabbing myself juz came again…I might juz end here as I go reach for a knife…

Goodbye…I love you all…

If u are my friend…here I say to you that I love you…

If you happen to just know me…here I would say to you I am sorry if you once tot that I was mean to you…

If you hate me…here I would say I do not hate you as much as you tot…

If u once loved me, and I made u not…here I say I actually do…juz in different ways…

If u love me, and u still do…here I say, I am not worthy of your love…

If you think that u meant nothing in my course of life…think again…

You were that small stone who hinder me from a bigger one…

You were that person made me smile with ur simple giggle…

You were the one I had a small chat with that I released all my dissatisfaction...

Once more I say that I love you all…

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