guilty

I do not want to commit this any longer,
I do not want to fake this,
Do not want to continue to act like a fool,
Do not want that hole n your heart to grow bigger.

To go and hurt a gentle heart,
Never would I want anyone else,
Suffer the same way I do,
I am sorry for the things I did to you.

For the pain I struggle,
Is too much to endure,
A soul like yours; will never,
Be able to take it.

I do not pray for the worst,
Therefore I can’t go on like this no more,
Never for me to share my love,
But just to continue to hate myself.

I am happy that you provide so much for me,
Yet I have to say sorry,
That I am not worthy of it,
I am sorry dear, but I have to say,
I don’t feel as much as you do, for me.