Curious Hideout

The thunderstorm has cleared, And after every rain, the rainbow appears, The sun shines trough my heart, It has mend me from within, from every cut. No more sorrow will fill this heart, My frustration are just dust, No more tears from those bruise and cuts, My pain has gone far away. My heart is let loose, From all your torture, My mind is free, Once again it works much better.

I made a mistake by reaching for the album, and took a glimpse at the photo we took together… I saw a great deal of happiness shared in the picture… but why do I feel so depressed? Should I not be satisfied instead? That I have had a significant moment with S*…Should I forget the moments we spend together? There I see our faces so cheerful I did not expect that we would ended up so fast... Your smile so perfect, its shines in the nite… You and i, holding each other closely, Our hearts are one, and you're all i want, STOP. everything is frozen, Its just a picture of you and me. Everything has change, but not in the picture, It still remain, the same till the future, Thus i hope, so is our friendship, Let it never break for eternity. Looking at those smiles, That happy couple, It will never come into your mind, that they soon didn't turned out fine. i miss you~

AlonE... How can you leave me here…All alone Facing my deepest fears…All alone Going through everything…All alone Here I am…All alone Can’t you see that I need you? Can’t you see that I love you? I really want you by my side, Right here, right this moment. All I need is your love, All I care about is you, Why are you so cruel, my love? Why can’t I stop loving you?

You and me in a fantasy, Has live to see, How cruel love can be... Maybe you have not notice, Of the scars you left in my heart, and that i am the least, Person you will put in your heart. so i hope that you will know, that my heart is pierced by a thousand knifes, my blood continuely flows, And has already ended up my life. Now that all is ruin, Now that i am dead, I walked in fantasy, To look for a new me..

should i or should i not? should i or should i not think of you? should i continue to longed for you? should i not stop wondering about you? should i or should i not? d clock is tickin', and time is burnin', here i am still thinkin', of you and me loving. should you not leave me alone? and let me live... should you understand the pain i go through... let me be, let me see, how wonderful life would be, without you to disturb me.

LOST... Lost in a world so dark, in a jungle so dense, No shoe to protect my feet, no food to eat, No strenght to go on like this! The route i took has vanish in front of me, For now that i can not see, How sensational the scene, At the top of the mountain would be. The ground beneath me i walk on, Under the sky, the stars, and the moon, There lies a girl with a broken smile, Withstanding the cold breeze at nite.

So close. so close to you i've been, so near my cheeks could even touch yours, being together as one, in a room so empty, Just you and me...together . holding you in my arms, gaze into your eyes, A thought came into my mind, "to love you with all my might". 3 and a half years has passed, of how we fell in love, try to recall the precious memories, its all nothing but a silly JOKE! time passes by so fast, its all in a glimpse of an eye, when we said Hi! now we say Bye!

ONCE AGAIN.. Living the days of my life, Only a tot on my mind, Vow to live my life, Even if you're not mine. Solemly i go through everything, Undenying my feelings, So long time have passed, A friend you are to me that last, Never i tot this moment gone so fast, Cherish our time together always, Hand in hand joyfull in all ways, Usher in love as i say, Nothing but happiness everyday, Giving up sorrow in everyway!

H.E.L.P. me... Help me, as im deeply in love with you, Help me, to forget you as u hav leave me, this feeling grows deeper, as time passes, Im weak, for i cant resist... So weak, So fragile... I AM WEAK, too difficult for me to push you away, there's no strenght left in me to stop thinking of our ways, Jzust lying down there, and our memories flip thru my mind, too tiring to fight the feeling i feel inside me. I AM FRAGILE, Almost shattered, by the cold words you speak, broken into pieces & cant be mend, I am not made of stone hard rock, my fragile heart, pounds continuely for you.

as time goes by... Although we have already parted, But yet we are still close at heart, All those time we had together, Will never be far from our hearts. As time goes by, Never let our memories fly, As I recall those times, Nothing but you on my mind. Parting is not always depressin’ I feel joy inside me just to c u smile, As I remember our shared moments, A smile Is always carved on my face. Thank you for giving me eternal joy, Nothing but sweet memories going through my mind, Joy and laughter, and no bitterness I suffer, Only u can give me all this.

Met you in a place, Over there I saw your face, Elegant and graceful you are, To suit you would be way too far. You opened your mouth & spoke to me, I was surprise & continue to see, The way you move, the way you talk, Have I fallen in love with you? Being together is too much to ask for, Just wanna be your friend is all I ask for, To go through ups & downs together, Just side by side & no further. Hope to see u again, 4 now & always, To share our lives in all ways, To enjoy our time in everyday, Let us not think of only today.

Misery from deep down inside, Nothing I see at sight, Not even a dimmed light, All so dark, the pain I fight. I really want you to know, How much I care 4 you, But you don’t seem to know, 4 I hide all my feelings 4 you. Fell so in love, Fell so hard on the floor, For now I’ve lost your love, Cause you had shut your door.

Emptiness I feel, All around me, Like a silent kill, That has taken me. Dark is my world. Hollow is my chest, Bring back light to me, Fill me with your love. All I feel is pain, My heart full of sorrow, No longer a free sparrow, But a bark, so hollow.

Greedy thief You ran away with all my love, Hundreds of bags, maybe thousands, You fill in your store, which may contain even more, Of my love 4 u forevermore You stole my smile, my happiness, My dreams & hopes shattered, I seek for your shelter, All you did was u took off faster. Caught in a prison, in a cell, Bars & chains, everything is like hell, So deep I am stuck in a well, Nobody to talk to and tell. I hurt myself even more, Just to cover up the pain u gave me, Instead, it all adds up, To create even more disaster.

A world of loneliness, So silent, so cold, nothing can survive, Except ME. Dumped here by the person I adore, To a land of ‘Forbidden Love’ No love is allow, Except me. Anger fills the air, A sense of betrayell and cruelty, Feel so real inside of me, Nothing can compare to the pain I feel, Struck by lightning, and banged by thunder, Once again I fell.. Down I go..into eternal darkness Bring me back, Show me your love, Catch me, please don’t let me fall, Hold me close to you.

Hurt…Hurted.. N now cured… A person full of hope & happiness, Walked through my life, Leaving soars & sorrow, To take her place. Now with full of soar & sorrow, I go through my days, Leaving my life with hate & pain, Cured? I supposed I am just hiding, Hiding from the truth, The truth bout my affection, - as my only one.

I feel comforted in your presence, Felt calm and love, Feel guilty if I’ve hurt you, Regretted every wrong doing I’ve done. You have made me drift towards the sea, Stay with me and let us see, And let us, let everything be, Hope that you can see how happy we’ll be. Loving you is the greatest choice I’ve made, Has change my life from within, I promise you I’ll not be fake, Promise you a happy ending. A day without you is like summer just pass, Need you by my side, to go through everything, No matter what happens, I promise to love you with all my heart.

I never knew, Knew that stars would shine, Even though we have part, Yet I feel so relieved. A burden I feel lifted up, A chain I feel broken loose, Songs of joy fill my heart, No more I feel like a fool. I m let loose like a flying bird, This feeling I could not explain, Of how joyous I m to be, From a prisoner to a flying dove. It’s obvious, I can’t be chained, I’ve free myself away from you, As I m a flying dove, I can’t be chained, Happiness comes flowing like a river.

As I m thinking of u, My heart hurts and soars, I don’t understand why? But it really hurts inside. I love you, I love you dearly, I love you till I hurt, Till I can’t love you anymore. Your actions, your expression, Hurts me even more, Pain I feel when you’re on my mind, Pain I feel deep down in my heart.