Curious Hideout

Am I really not the one? Maybe its cause we may not spent a day longer together here. Therefore you close heart from mine, Not to hurt both you and I, Not to endure that loss that will come upon us. Isn’t there any? In that space in your heart, Will I be kept particularly, Silently. I just wonder, Were there any seconds, You feel the same way too, The way I feel for you. Weren’t there anything u felt? Had I appeared suddenly on your mind? Do you scent the flower, I found in you. Have I not captivate you, Like how much you do to me, Am I just a player, A fool in those eyes of yours. Maybe you should not have known, Maybe I should kept quite, All the while just to keep, Emotion that rupture inside my heart. You should have not known, What we had before may loss, But not that sense I feel, Not how the way we relate. I won’t throw that friendship away, I still want us to be us, No close doors, Nor close hearts, Just conversation for hours. Don’t turn into another direction, Its just me ove

No games no rules, just a simple feeling, no tricks, no fools, just my heart beating. Too sudden this may be, but is it wrong? why does guilt surrounds me, how couldn't i step forward. I hope 4 nothing, i wish 4 nothing, i pray 4 nothing, just me being beside you. Is it that hard? to trust in me. Am i a liar? pretending to love you. Words may be decorated, but not my heart, nor how i care, it borns within the heart.

My curiosity, killed her trust, wanting to know more, made a fool of myself, unable to control that anxiety. the things she does, before she eats, before she sleeps, what is it she does, i just gotta know. what time is it? as she sips her coffee, as she plugs her earphones, as she goes out to work. the moment she bite her nails, she lets her hair down, and the music she listens, curious i am to be. where is she from? how she dresses her thoughts, her experiences before me, i would want to know. her favourite colour, how much she adores spicy food, her passion and dreams, to me i keep dearly as memories. how common our thoughts, days when even our shirt matches, how frequent our eyes may lock, just staring at each other, plainly. i can't help to notice...yet not all is noticeable...(like that pimple)...

As words create stir, building walls that blocks, not to understand, the true meaning. regret i always be, as my mouth trembles, the mind stops, the veins clog, and not a word comes out. As a day passes, that scar remain unheal, i can't close my eyes, just letting it be. All that is misunderstood, should be cleared, all thoughts that denies, be replace with truth. never i want, to fight nor hate, i just don't want, to endure what is loss.

Your plane awaits you, yet before it departs, hold my hands, let's walk through this valley, to the summit where the sun sets. you brought me back, to see things the way i use to see, to laugh out my heart's desire, to share the darkest secret. though a short while, yet you impact me, you're that diamond in the rough, shinning ever so brightly. 4 meng

As my mouth open to speak, words hide what the heart feels, creating that masked face, not letting you to know, from stone to dust, complicating my own thoughts, a straight road crooked, a metal steel bended, Afraid i am to be, shivering, tumbling to even speak, your thoughs become my concern, every word bears its mass, getting heavier, i just want to be me, as pure as myself, No shadow, no masks, i reveal myself to you, 4 meng

Just need someone to comfort, when i need her the most, someone that sees right through, without saying a word. to share both joy and sorrow, and each time we laugh, it comes out from the heart, to stay as the sweetest memory. too less the time, for me to know you more, yet just enough, for me to fall for you. time may be less, but each second, i will cherish, no more wasting time, its just you and me. I may not be the one, but just let me stay awhile, don't push me aside, i will just sit here silently. i won't take another step, till your arms open up, a space for me, in that heart of yours. 4 meng

May Autumn leaves fall, upon the ground we walk, as the end aproaches, Hand in hand we'll be together. Barriers being build, up higher and higher, as i lay asleep, never to find the solution. What has become of me, thoughts without thinking, words without meaning, actions without moving. to hurt and suffer, not only myself, but all, each concern weakens me, from hair tips, to toe nails. Becoming worthless, unable to stand on both feet, but only to crawl, on stones and thorns. 4 meng

Please don’t keep silent, No, don’t close your heart, Away from me, You’ll freeze my heart. Not another second, I could bear, Not another breath, I could gasp. Can’t you see? As my eyes look upon yours, The truth lay underneath, Not to look down upon. Never knew it could hurt, As much as a thousand knifes, Piercing right through my heart, Yet you keep it cool. Tears never roll down, Cheeks stay dry, Yet the heart bleeds, As words wouldn’t speak. Can’t take it anymore, Where is the end of it? Let the scars fade away, As time purify the guilt. 4 meng

time may be short, but memories last, if we have a chance, just to live this moment, would u take my hand, together we walk this road. i tried to be selfish, try not to pour, yet my heart could not resist, to know 'bout u more. why now? couldn't we met earlier? if i could choose, i choose not to know u. at least the pain i feel, will not exist in me. if i could choose, i wish u not to know, then, you'll not feel, the sorrow i feel. the thruth is i can't, i can't help it anymore, if this remain a secret in me, u will never know. we may never know, how stars light up in the sky, but all i know, is the joy we may have together. 4 Meng

would you? if i hold your hand, would you hold mine? if i stand by your side, would you walk away? if my heart hurts like this, would yours bleed as well? if this moment stop, would i be the one? if my mind is clear, why my heart isn't? if all is true, just where would we stand? if i say chit de, what will your heart say?

Feelings shut tight, compress not to show, confess not to say, condemn i turn to be. i try to be strong, change my heart from stone to diamond, yet it still shaters, in the midst of your presence. i want to be strong, not to fall deeper, yet no rope i could grab hold, but to fall even faster. as moment flies, times we spent, get lesser each day, and each minute is precious. time passes like water, that flows in a river, so let it freeze, and let seconds tick longer. 4 meng