Curious Hideout

I Love Love the way u smile back at me, The way you lay your hands on me, The way our fingers clench, The way our body touches The way our tots are alike, The way you tease me, The way you turn around, Just to check on me. The way you laugh, The way you cry, The way you see things, Even the way we quarrel. There’s so many I things I love to do when we are together, There’s so many things I couldn’t do alone, Even if there’s so many things we not be able to do, I know right now I share my days with only you.

Further and further, we step into darkness, piercing each other, by each step made. How to please you, i do not know, how would i know, as your door is always close. I am lost, in this darkness, can't barely see, i shiver and tremble, even as i open my mouth. I am sorry, for all the things, i've never done or did, i was selfish, i admit, all i did was to save myself, and i hurt you instead. in front you stand, yet i cant say a thing, making me swallow back what i said, feeling numd instead. creating that wall, up higher and higher, brick by brick, i add cement to it. i'm sorry...please be bak the person i once knew...

Would you not appreciate me? as others see me, cheer for me, Your lips bare words that hurt me, ashamed I am to be. What does your eyes see? a child that could not walk, or an eagle soaring up high, look deeply and find me. As i loose confidence, I sweat each time i talk, struggling what to say, For your ears to listen. I just want you to know me more, but you seem to misunderstand, each time i tell my story, it'll never have a happy ending.

This scar that appears, found out in time, Encourage me, positive is always me, even as a stone blocks my way, i will find a way to go back my ways. Things may stop me, but if i want, i know i can, i may fall & be dull over it, but please don't pull me down again. I just need to know that you support me, in whatever i do, I want you to see me, like how i am proud of myself, tat is jus all i want. thoughts of the day i tell you, you listened, but how you answered, breaks my hearts deeply, if time is what we need, let it be. Since that very day, i wasn't complete, till i tot i found you, yet i am not...for you are not by my side, i don't want to loose what i just found. Please tell me, let me noe, that we can make it through, let's not suffer anymore, let's take that scar away. still waiting...

I talk to you... you answered... We share our tots of the day, patiently i listen, So were you, yet that feeling differs, by words from your mouth. Sometimes it is so hard, to understand, to know, what you really mean, what is it all about. what are you thinking about? what is it bothering you? It is my turn to share, all that came out was, only words that isn;t me, just discouraged, by what you said. Is it true that we can't talk? If it is, why are we still standing here? i believe is my fault to blame, i just can't match what you think, this is the contrast that exist, yet to be soften by time. I want to believe that we can make it, i want to see ourselves together, but words and tots that differs, by a valley, i am not sure how to cope with it.

Up above is what i am, to change it is something, i myself am not confident, trying my best but afraid to fail. I am not like you, Yes we aren't, your thoughts i am far away from, that distant i can't follow, this barrier exist bigger than Him. I just don't have the strenght, to love someone like you, told myself not to fall again, thus i am pulling myslef back.

Still lingering as i wait, longing nothing else but you, pouring out every strenght, for no one else but you. Here i continue to stand, lay aback with not a step forth, could this last till i can't last no more? please don't let me stand here alone. I've been here all this while, and i will be, yet don't let me just stay there, bring me close to you.

As words began to spill out, And the bitter truth is to be known, I feel as if one small mistake, Will not be forgiven just like that. It will be remembered till, again if we quarrel, there'e nothing left, Just droplets of tears &, shattered hearts. To love like i never been hurt, is a lie i have to hide, to love with all my might, is what i am trying to do again, It has become so hard, for me to have faith again, It is so hard to see, when everything is a blur. Could i really satisfy her, Would history repeat again, i believe i found the one, yet...i still don't. Will she continue to love me? even if time passes by so quickly, will her passion decrease in front of me, I just couldn't bear to watch. I can't give you all, but i can give you me, will be there by your side, Just to listen to you. I can't bring you places, all i can do is lead you to my heart, bring you joy, never let you cry, tat is all.... Hold it, or leave it, is in your hands.

As one day passes by another, i should rejoice, as we go through each day, and the day will come nearer. Yet i still doubt, as weeknesses are unveil each day, could you or could you not, accept i am this way. Once you said you love me, but what you seen is not all of me, you love that me, and maybe not the real I am. Therefore i have not much hope, On someone that only sees my shell.

As i bind myself, i became stronger, at the same time, i loose confidence. I never let anyone, overstep that border, yet when i have not heal, i let myself hurt again. Could this just be a dream, a fantasy, not to be real, for such a person will never, exist in this world of mine. How would I believe, that you are real to me. How could i've not met you earlier, where were you all this while, fate brought us together, let's cherish what's in front of us. I am glad that you're here with me, glad that we finally found each other, let's not waste any minute, before everything is too late.

You know the key, To where my heart lies, You know how to love, I hope you love me too. It's been so long, that i've frozen myself, creating a barrier from all hurt, never to love some1 as much again. but you, you melt the ice in me, melt my heart instead, making me love, the way i love again.

Dun wanna loose this feeling, Dun wanna fall too hard once again, Dun wanna repeat what has happened, Please say u'll never let it happen. Here i continue to doubt, Not your love for me, And not my love for you, But the journey that we are yet to set. Will it end suddenly, Will it hurt me again, Will history repeat, Will i be able to bear?