i finaly understand...
i come back to my cosy home...
i took my shower n stood there-naked...
i tot......n i tot hard......
i Finally RealizE.
I am miserable bcoz i dun have sumwhere to belong to...
Yes, i have friends that i can look to...But there isn't that bond between us...there isn't tat 'really good friend' feel...for example, there r many things v r not 'kap' in many sense...
I have lots of friends that care for me...but they have their own budddies as well too...
I can't go breaking their friendship up rite?
there is no way i go into their lifes just like tat...it just isnt rite...
My best bud isn't by my side...and i am not by hers as well...
I am sure that during this period of time...we hav changed a lot...
I am so afraid that we might not understand each other anymore--by the time she gets back...
Here i am crying...
Crying for a new friend...
Crying to be belonged...
Crying not to be lonely...
I LOST ONE gud fren that i tot would LAST till we grow old and hav white hair.
Tat gud fren and i had many misunderstandings, which became worst as i try to expailn myself-i have problem explainin myself...
Tat gud fren always knew wen i was feeling down. It is like she knows, whenever i am feeling miserable.
There were many times, wen i was crying at home in my bed,
She called up to say Hi...while finding me crying in sorrow because of dear mum.
We were in many co-curricular activities n societies together...
We conquer the committee members becoz we were usually either d president or vice president--usualli i am the president...haha...
this gud fren status in my heart...is as same as my best fren Janice...
THis gud fren is S*
I just can't suit myself in this new environment, tat i now live in...
It just suddenly change in a blink of an eye...
So fast i could not even digest.
From doin everything together-to walking our own ways,
From sharing everything together-to being stingy and selfish
I am sure that she is having fun with her new profound fren
She just treat me like old stockings.
Hav i not sacrifice as much as she does?
Does she not realize that we had a great relationship n shouldn't let it go to waste?
i come back to my cosy home...
i took my shower n stood there-naked...
i tot......n i tot hard......
i Finally RealizE.
I am miserable bcoz i dun have sumwhere to belong to...
Yes, i have friends that i can look to...But there isn't that bond between us...there isn't tat 'really good friend' feel...for example, there r many things v r not 'kap' in many sense...
I have lots of friends that care for me...but they have their own budddies as well too...
I can't go breaking their friendship up rite?
there is no way i go into their lifes just like tat...it just isnt rite...
My best bud isn't by my side...and i am not by hers as well...
I am sure that during this period of time...we hav changed a lot...
I am so afraid that we might not understand each other anymore--by the time she gets back...
Here i am crying...
Crying for a new friend...
Crying to be belonged...
Crying not to be lonely...
I LOST ONE gud fren that i tot would LAST till we grow old and hav white hair.
Tat gud fren and i had many misunderstandings, which became worst as i try to expailn myself-i have problem explainin myself...
Tat gud fren always knew wen i was feeling down. It is like she knows, whenever i am feeling miserable.
There were many times, wen i was crying at home in my bed,
She called up to say Hi...while finding me crying in sorrow because of dear mum.
We were in many co-curricular activities n societies together...
We conquer the committee members becoz we were usually either d president or vice president--usualli i am the president...haha...
this gud fren status in my heart...is as same as my best fren Janice...
THis gud fren is S*
I just can't suit myself in this new environment, tat i now live in...
It just suddenly change in a blink of an eye...
So fast i could not even digest.
From doin everything together-to walking our own ways,
From sharing everything together-to being stingy and selfish
I am sure that she is having fun with her new profound fren
She just treat me like old stockings.
Hav i not sacrifice as much as she does?
Does she not realize that we had a great relationship n shouldn't let it go to waste?
Mayb just mayb...i wasnt gud enuf to be her friend.
A Friend...tat cares bout wat u do,
A Friend...tat is able to console and advice you,
A Friend...to share your deep dark secrets,
A Friend...to love and care and enjoy every moments.
a FrienD...
I love thet sense of feeling belong..every1 does...and being belong to my best pals, being belong to those i want to be belong to. Not being belong to sum1 who hardly knows you, but my best frenz...My frenz tat i really spend all my time with...the fren i enjoyed being with....
My Friend
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