a thought

Why am I so immature?
Why aren’t I strong?
I should be strong,
For more obstacles awaits me,
But I fail to be,
Just as strong as I thought I could be.

Words you spoke to me,
Secrets that u told me,
Things only we know,
I always wonder, in my mind,
Have you told another? Have you let it spread?
Have you add black dots?
In those words I spoke?
In those actions I act,
Have u talk of false gestures?
Have you? I just wonder…

A wonder......a thought……that kills me slowly…